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Life, is bigger.. · Nov 27, 09:33 PM

On a personal quest to deepen my conversion, I’ve picked up The Imitation of Christ. In it I am happily finding the same religion that I fell head over heels for in George MacDonald’s Unspoken Sermons. This is fortunate; this is unfortunate. One of my darkers fears is that I had submitted myself to a different religion than I had fallen in love with, which more and more seems not to be the case. That’s the fortunate thing. The unfortune thing is that the religion I love is a terrible thing—like skydiving or the Niagara barrel challenge.

I broach the subject, seeking catharsis. Events conspire… (In English it too easy to tell how events conspire or lead or remind, but “as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be,” their Author is the one who conspires—always for us, never against us!—who leads, and who reminds) ... The Author of every event reminds me—how to say it—self-denial sucks, if only from the perspective of all the subjugated desires and resignated selfish reflexes.

Ah!... bittersweet and ironic. For once I fall prey to a pet peeve, which haunts me like an undead puppy from a golden youth; I speak with abstraction and generality, bowing to the common sense and common ettiquette that encourages us to put our dirty laundry away into baskets before the company comes over. Ah, well.

We drink the blood our God, whom we tortured also unto death, and gain his power. I don’t want part of any religion that is not deep with suffering and love all mixed together. It just wouldn’t have that certain, special, je ne sais quoi.

“He is a [sane] man who can have tragedy in his heart and comedy in his head.”

G.K. Chesterton, Tremendous Trifles, 1909.

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  1. I’ve had clearer thoughts whilest drunk: ha! — Tom    Nov 28, 12:00 AM    #

  2. Did you just troll yourself? — JFu    Nov 28, 03:05 AM    #

  3. It was either that or not post at all. — Tom    Nov 28, 10:50 AM    #

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